How I feel about being an only child- 02/04/2015

Being an only child has its perks and not so great perks, in my opinion. I like being alone most of the time, sounds kind of emo but it's true. I'm introverted so it makes sense that I like being by myself. I was byself alone for most of my life till I actually had courage to talk to people and have friends and even trust them even though, I had trust issues at a very young age. I use to be pick on being an only child and I kept wondering am I that lonely..? I only had like one really close friend and she was like a sister who knew me from the moon and back and she knew that I wasn't like the other kids, outgoing and energetic. Not that being outing and energetic is bad but I wasn't like that, I was like shy and quite moody. I am still shy and moody but it has gotten better through the years of adolescent. Unfortunately, my mom had a miscarriage when I was like 3. I didn't know about it till I was 16. I'm guessing it really affected my mom and she didn't want me in agony. Thank you mom but you didn't need to hide it, I'm pretty sure I can take the agony and be there for you through on that rough time in your life. My dad was probably in agony but nowhere near my mom's agony because my dad just focused on work and took care of my mom and I, while my mom just pushed herself. Strong women if you ask me and she kept on moving in life for me and my dad. Sometimes, I wonder how my life would be if I had that sibling that was in my moms tummy for a while. It was a female, it would be like having a little sister to take care of. Anyways, the downs of being an only child is my parents expect too much from me because I'm their only child. I will try my best to meet their expectations as well as putting a little more effort for my little sister I never met. All in all, being an only child is something I'm use to and I'm not that lonely like before. Thank you friends and family for always being there for me. I love each one of you guys with all my heart. My heart is pretty big don't worry.